I can't even remember a time when I wasn't dreaming big or working toward a big goal I had in mind. Transitioning into life after college has proven to be a little hard for me - the quarter life crisis is real. Thank goodness I decided to get my master's. Did I want to go back to school and just become a professional student? Doctorate? Yeah, maybe another time....haha.
When I finally realized that this new transition didn't mean that I had to give up on my dreams, I was able to find the pep in my step again. It definitely took some time and a lot of praying, learning and most importantly, listening. Some of my dreams might seem a little far fetched, yes, but hey - anything can happen! Recently I have been struggling with worrying and overanalyzing. It is both a blessing and a curse to have such a type A & communicator personality. Because of this - I overanalyze everything. I worry about settling for something that is less than my dreams. In this transition, I have somewhat realized that when you settle for less, you are actually giving up on your passions. Like I said, I have a "communicator" personality. I also am very passionate about everything that I am involved in and put my heart and soul into everything I do. This is also a blessing and a curse as well because since I am so passionate, I tend to get upset a little more easily and get emotional.
I now understand the reason for my "quarter-life crisis". I was no longer dreaming. I was settling. I was just going day by day not working toward a goal. I was starting to become someone I didn't recognize. Because of this, I have decided I never want to put myself through the "no-dreaming" phase EVER again. My question and issue now is - when do I need to settle? I know I will always have dreams. Like I said, those dreams won't always come true. When is it ok to settle? For what reasons? Why? These are questions I have been asking myself (and praying) about.
I heard the song below (Cast My Cares by Finding Favour) on K-Love a few months ago. Little did I know what an impact it would make on my heart! It's okay to have dreams and I know that the Lord will always care for me and lead me through this crazy thing called life no matter where it may take me!
When fear feels bigger than my faith
And struggles steal my breath away
When my back's pressed up against the wall
With the weight of my worries stacked up tall
You're strong enough to hold it all
I will cast my cares on You
You're the anchor of my hope
The only one who's in control
I will cast my cares on You
I'll trade the troubles of this world
For Your peace inside my soul
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Be bold enough to use your voice, brave enough to listen to your heart, and strong enough to live the life you've always imagined.